It’s like a sweetness overload.
Oh and spoiler alert… From last week’s HIMYM
"1. Forgetting that karma is a huge b*tch
Whether it’s burning bridges with people you loved, stealing your friend’s girlfriend or plotting against an ex-partner, we must always remember that karma is the biggest b*tch we’ve ever met.
There is nothing more true than the fact that whatever goes around comes around, and you are not immune to the cosmic forces that be. We’re not asking you to go on your Mother Teresa pilgrimage, but don’t be surprised when reality catches back up with you and brings you to your knees. Be a good person. You’ll get further in life.”
No shame here for me at all. One of my favorite scenes in one of my top five favorite movies, ever.
About to try to all across this for the second time in my life and considering I’m terrifyied of heights, this should be interesting lol
And considering that the reason I’m afraid of heights goes back to when I was nearly dropped off the side of this exact mountain when I was 4 should make it EXTRA interesting!
I can hike up a mountain & sit (relatively close) on the edge, but all me to walk across a more high swinging bridge & I will panic silently to myself for half an hour haha
And I’m done with it. I may still carry that pain and maybe will forever.
But I’m going to do everything in my power to stop it from taking over every day of my life. If I only get an hour a day where it doesn’t affect my thought process and decisions and emotions, I think that will be enough. But I’m tired of being lonely in a crowd, no matter how small. And I’m tired of being bloody tired. And miserable. I want happiness and I’ll be damned if I let one more person call me nothing or worth nothing on top of dealing with past pain that I can’t shake.
I will always be damaged, but I can still be happy eventually. Hopefully I will help myself by being less hard on myself & with my career & hopefully I can meet someone eventually who will help as well & support me.
And I’m writing a lot of this to try to convince myself. Because I’m an optimist/idealist with depression & a constant string of horrible events & what people say is “bad luck” (more like soul crushing pain, but bad luck it is) that causes me to fall even further past the edge. So my brain is like a walking contradiction from hell- & the poor idiot needs to be continuously convinced.
The only way I can stop myself from crying constantly in front of people is to be angry. In general & at myself, no one else.
It’s not the best method, but then again neither is crying 24/7 or openly wanting to die.
Just realized that Mickey’s ears look just like the old film reels…
I’m really overexcited about this tiny epiphany
"In this world, Elwood, you must be" - she always called me Elwood - "In this world, Elwood, you must be oh so smart or oh so pleasant."
Well, for years I was smart. I recommend pleasant. You may quote me.
Elwood P. Dowd, Harvey, 1950